Story Telling

I lied to me for several years, since I was a kid.

My dad showed me magazines of naked women when I was a child, and I automatically understood that it was the way.

I was wrong, by the way. That followed by long years of watching porn and it sures does not go in the direction I want.

During this journey, I had so much difficult getting close to women.

And for my surprise, when I did connect to my self, I met Mari which was the best kiss I ever had. She was a cute girl also.

I was 19 years when I had my first kiss and with her I got into my neediness for the first time, it was very strong.

I cried a lot wanting her to be my girlfriend, but what I needed was to be myself and enjoy women when they get attracted to me.

It should be as simple as that, but it wasn't.

There is more to that. I met a long list of women, that I got close but ended as friends.

And in reality, I want to say this to my self.

I just wanted to fuck them.

That's right. I wanted sex, amazing sex, as the ones I saw in movies.

I will put some names here because I want them out.

I met Bruninha in a forró (Observatório) and I was the most natural I could be.

We ended having a nice time together, dating as well until I got needy and she didn't want me anymore.

She was very cute, small tits and had a good sex, but in the moment I god needy she got rid of me.

Luiza, a cute girl I met in forró that is married to Badaró.

I just wanted to fuck her, period.

And I wasted my time with her, understanding her feeling, being nice and being nice to her friends.

Also, I just wanted sex with her friends as well.

I got so needy that with Jeff's ideas I went to internet chatting and ended meeting Grace.

Grace was my girlfriend for 8 years and I cheated her once, because it was a bad experience being with her.

She had a daughter and I got there for a long time, just being... nice. It was a waste of time, and despite I learned somethings with her, cooking for example.

It was a bad and long experience.

And then I freaked out. I drank too much, I almost commited suicide in the apartemnt in Gonçalves Dias.

But my friends got some close and introduced me some girls after she broke up with me.

I met Leleu. Leleu was a tall girl, with small tits and a big ass. She was very naughty, a real slut in bed.

During our first sex, when I was drunk, I couldn't cum, I just couldn't get it out. It was a very bad experience.

But we could get together and have some good sex afterwards. And Grace got crazy chasing me and I was really a dick with her.

The real is I didn't want her around, and although I wanted some sex with her, I ended being a jerk with her.

It was quite good being a Jerk with her because I was in control.

So she disappeared.

And then in Mimulus, I found Amaranta. She was so fucking hot and to get close to her I just went to friendship.

I remender dancing with her several times in forró and I got my dick very hard on her legs.

She feeled it and I did nothing, even when I got to get her to my house.

Because I was needy looking too much for her feelings, and not looking for what I wanted.

If she was attracted to me, I should have taken the opportunity to fuck her.

Because she was so fucking hot. Small tits, big ass, amazing cute face.

After getting tired of all this, I met Ju. This was the first time I wasn't needy.

Amazing sex, even anal sex we had together until our son was born and I got once again needy.

So I am here, saying to myself that is not about the Girls.

It's about you. Your sports, your choices, your needs. Without waiting validation.

The path to get where you want is taking time for you projects, your thoughts, being alone with you and more.

You are you best reference, just be you.